Here I Am

I have been so busy! I always say that, but it is so true.

Well the house is all deco'd for Christmas, I just have to put Elizabeth's little tree up in her room. She loves the trees that we have downstairs, and usually asks me to turn the lights on for her. I can not wait until Christmas morning to watch her with her presents. It is going to be the best Christmas ever.

Mushy time:
I've been thinking about Elizabeth's birth and the first few months of her life a lot the past few weeks. Those first couple of months were rough at times, especially since my hormones went wacko on me, but they were so wonderful at the same time. I looked back at some old emails I sent to family and friends, and I noticed in all of them I was so full of joy and happiness about my new little baby. My memories of those first months are not ones of my tears and anxiety, but of my love for my baby girl. Memories of her cuddling up on me for her night feedings, and her adorable feet, the cute way she would sniff her nose as she woke up for a feeding, the way she smelled, her sponge baths on her changing table, her first smile and how I loved to get up in the morning and go see that beautiful smile, all the wonderful memories. I said early on that I looked in the mirror and I did not know who I was anymore, well of course not, I had changed. When I look in the mirror now I see a different me than I was before, I see a Mom so full of happiness and love. I so adore the person I am now (don't get me wrong I liked myself before). I'm a mommy and it is the most wonderful thing that has EVER happened to me. My life changed so much on June 22, 2005 and I wouldn't have it any other way. I love how much I miss her when I am away from her, I love how she calls for me in the middle of the night, I love her tantrums, I love her hugs, I love playing with her, I love reading to her, I love laughing everyday with her, and I so love that she completes the puzzle for me. Thank you God for the most amazing blessing you've ever given me, thank you for the tears, thank you for holding me up, thank you for all the love.

Ok, now that I have myself in tears. I just needed to get that out.

Tom and I went to Canyon today to pick out our standards and upgrades for the new house. What a day! It was fun, but very exhausting too. All in all I think we did a good job. Our bathroom colors are so nice, and I love what we picked for the kitchen. We really tired to limit the upgrades to things that we felt would be hard to do after the house is built. I can't wait for construction to start so I can post pictures.

Tomorrow I plan to rest, and maybe bake some brownies.